Totally Not Appropriate
Welcome to Totally Not Appropriate, where medicine meets mystery—and healing finally becomes whole.
Hosted by Taylor Sappington, a medical astrologer and herbalist blending 15 years of Western and Eastern practice, and Adrienne Irizarry, HWH, a reproductive rebel, cycle alchemist and East Asian medicine practitioner rewriting the story of women’s health, this podcast is a sanctuary for the witches in the broom closet, the healers in hiding, and the ones who walk between worlds but have been told it’s safer to stay silent.
We don’t buy into quick fixes or cookie-cutter care. We bring together the science of the body, the wisdom of the Earth, and the patterns written in the sky. We’re here to challenge the systems that left us unseen, to honor the ancient ways that still work, and to show you that the most powerful medicine is always rooted in who you are.
Each week, we’ll dive into raw, real conversations about healing, identity, and reclamation. From sage to SSRIs, acupuncture to astrology, herbal remedies to holy revelations—we hold space for it all. Because clinical isn’t enough.
This is your reminder, your permission, your initiation: the safest thing you can be is yourself.
Totally Not Appropriate
Alignment Over Urgency: How to Trust Your Body, Build Boundaries, and Lead Yourself
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Are you actually out of alignment… or are you just ignoring your body?
In this episode, we break down what it really means to operate from alignment instead of urgency—and why relying on your mind alone keeps you stuck in overthinking, pressure, and misaligned decisions.
You’ll learn how to:
- Make decisions using your heart and gut (not just your head)
- Understand what “coherence” actually means in your life and business
- Build stronger boundaries through nervous system regulation
- Recognize when you’re being energetically “porous” and how to shift it
- Stop avoiding regulation just because it feels uncomfortable or looks “weird”
We also dive into:
- The Pluto in Scorpio generation and why boundaries get stronger with age
- Adrienne’s astrological patterns and how they influence sensitivity and openness
- Solar return themes and how different seasons call for different levels of expansion and refinement
If you’ve been feeling stuck, overwhelmed, or like your decisions aren’t landing—this episode will help you reconnect to your body, your truth, and your next aligned move.
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Welcome back to another episode of the TNA podcast. Life is moving and grooving for all of us. Adrian is on the precipice of a new adventure in her life. I know, a baby and then another new adventure.
SPEAKER_01It's a lot in a small period of time, still wrestling with whether this is the best timing for everything. But energetically, it all feels aligned. You're listening to the TNA podcast.
SPEAKER_02Totally not appropriate. We're your hosts, Taylor Sappington, a cosmic cartographer, medical astrologer, and herbalist decoding the intersection of soul, body, and belief.
SPEAKER_01And Adrian Irazari, a psychoalchemist trained in East Asian medicine, vibrational healing, and the sacred science of your nervous system. Together we blend ancient tools, clinical wisdom, and unapologetic truth-telling. From main events to metaphysics, tarot to tonics, karma to cancel culture, nothing is off-limits and everything is on the table. This space is for the boldly curious, the ones who crave uncomfortable conversations, crave deeper insight, and are done pretending that they don't feel what they feel.
SPEAKER_02So turn it up, tune in, and don't say we didn't warn you. Welcome to TNA. Can you just talk about that for a minute? Because I think people get confused. We live in a world in a day and age of bypassing. Yes. Where we make meaning out of everything. And everything, you know, it's either out of alignment or in alignment. So when you say that it's aligned, it feels energetically aligned. What does that feel like for you? What does that mean?
SPEAKER_01What does that feel like for me? In my system, it means that things flow. There might be a lot of work involved, but it doesn't feel hard. Yeah. So when we try to like make shit happen, and I am like so guilty of this. I used to be a make shit happen, get shit done kind of person. I still am. But I have recalibrated. Now it's like if it is meant to happen, and I said this to my husband through this entire process. So we are getting ready to list our house and move, which is probably going to be an announcement for some of you, actually. Those of you who know me. We have had this debate for many moons now and totally saw a place that would fit our needs. We just kind of sat with it. Okay. So not rush, no urgency, nobody was pushing us into a decision. And I totally important. Yes. But that's the part of the alignment, right? In the past, I would have been like, oh, I really like it. We need to put an offer in right now. Yeah. And oh, because the market's moving really fast, we don't have time.
SPEAKER_02The market's a funny place right now, too. Like March 18th, 2026. The market is dicey right now. Like at least here in Florida. It is absolutely a buyer's market in the sense that we have a ton of inventory.
SPEAKER_01Oh, see, we don't here.
SPEAKER_02We have a ton of inventory, but everybody is still in Dulululand that's selling, right? They're in 2022 pricing as opposed to 2026 pricing with applicable rates. Look, I love my house. It's a 1967 M block concrete home. When I think about Florida and everything that Florida has seen, I'm like, this bitch has seen some things and she is still here, right? So I feel very confident in my older home, to your point before we hit record. We have absolutely been repairing boo-boos and removing bandages since we moved in. That part of it is a little tedious and arduous, time consuming, financially consuming, and exhausting at times. Right. But in Florida, this particular home, like four years ago, was going for over half a million dollars, like in the surrounding areas. Yeah. What the fuck? You know? So in Florida, we have a ton of inventory because everybody's still like, oh, a highly desirable area. St. Pete was just named as like best place to live again for 2026. Yeah. And when you get down to the level of locals, many people are not able to sustain where the trajectory of the cost of living is going around here. We have run so many local Floridians out and the ecosystem. Please stop building. If this somehow, by the grace of God, Gaia or the universe, right, comes across the desk of a developer around here, take the old houses and gut them. Stop putting in multi-unit buildings. But yeah, we have like the opposite down here where we have so much inventory and people are just sitting and sitting.
SPEAKER_01Yeah, see, and that's not the case up here. The seacoast is one of the most desirable areas to be in because it's commutable to Boston and it's gotten so high, the cost of living in Massachusetts and in Boston, that people live up here and commute down there. I mean, my husband does that. My husband's a local seven iron worker in his civilian job when he's not going to do his military stuff, and he has to commute into Boston. And so it's a big trek. And although it's a very reasonable trek from the seacoast area. So we've watched like inventory be really low and our prices go up and up and up. And so I am being priced out of this area. Yeah, and it was very affordable to live here when we originally bought almost a decade ago.
SPEAKER_02Yeah.
SPEAKER_01And we're going further inland and north because it's more cost effective and we'll have as many resources. And it puts me kind of still within the same radius of all of my clients that come to see me too, the ones that come in person, because I do so much telehealth, but it really overall doesn't matter. But for those people that do come see me, I took that into really high consideration. And so coming back to this alignment question, that was part of it. Is like, okay, so does this feel good in terms of the distance that it makes me for the people in the surrounding area that do see me in person? What does this open the door for? So this move will actually put me within 20 minutes of my best friend who has a little boy who is six weeks younger than my son. And she has offered to help me juggle childcare. That is a huge support for me. So when we started, we were just casually looking, right? Like there's no urgency to leave here. There's a lot of considerations that have been piling up over time. And so this year we decided we'd just look and see what's out there. And this particular house is really commuter friendly. It is really close to my girlfriend. Like it literally checked every single one of the boxes without being forced. It just appeared and we went and we looked at it and it checks the boxes of our current needs. It makes it so that if my parents decided that they needed to sell their house and be closer for medical reasons and all kinds of things, because my parents live quite a ways from me right now. We could convert part of the house so that they could have their own space and I'm still there to help take care of them. They're closer to better medical facilities than where they are now. So, like it made it so that it suited our current needs and it very easily could suit future needs over the course of the next 20 years, right? Because in the next 20 years, Eric and I will be in a place where we're gonna be looking to start thinking about retiring, right? And you know, my parents will be very old by then. And so whatever has come to pass will come to pass by then in terms of relocation and whatnot. So I said to Eric, I was like, we're not forcing anything. Here's what we're gonna offer. If they take it, it means it was meant to be. And if they don't take it, that's okay. And like it's just that easy. It wasn't frantic, it wasn't forced, it wasn't, oh my god, what if uh like it was none of that? It was just literally in the flow. Like, this is what we're gonna do. If it's gonna work, it'll be great. And all of that was so easy, and then they accepted, and we were like, Holy crap! Yeah, they actually accepted what it was that we offered, and then like everything paperwork, all the stuff between the lender, it has been smooth, yeah. No forcing. I mean, and is it stressful? Yeah, because it's a lot of work to physically move your house, but the stressful part is how much in a compressed time frame I have to do this because it has to do with like safety in my nervous system, and like, you know what I mean? We're gonna be homeless. It's not like that. So that's why, even though I have a little bit of trauma, not gonna lie, from my last move into this house. I stood in my driveway. My husband goes, What are you doing? And I'm like doing shaking leaf. So anybody who's familiar with shaking leaf qigong, I stood in the driveway and I'm going, ah, like this with my voice, and I'm shaking my body up and down. And he goes, You look like a nut job. And I was like, I am helping to regulate my nervous system, leave me alone. Because I just knew that going into this, it was going to be a lot of time, right? It was gonna be a compressed time frame. It was gonna require some late nights in order to get it ready. That part juggling a toddler was daunting, right?
SPEAKER_02I find it fascinating that someone is not willing to look a little ridiculous. This is a lot of people, like sorry, Eric, but this is you, you represent a large majority of the population, okay? There are so many people that are unwilling to look ridiculous temporarily for long-term regulation. And it's interesting because humans are actually built to move in that way. Like we are built to shake, we are built to move in a nonlinear fashion, we are built to utilize our voice in that capacity, not to please the ears of other people, but to as another military copter flies over my house, it shakes my whole fucking house. Sorry, guys. We've been a flight path. We've got McDill down here, yeah, and it's been very busy, almost concerningly busy, right? Where you're like, you notice that they don't fly, and then all of a sudden you're like, that's the third one I've heard today. Okay. But I digress. We are built as human beings to utilize all parts of our sixth senses. I love how they made a movie out of it and they made it terrifying, you know, for most people to watch. We all have a sixth sense. We are all capable of tapping into it. We are just conditioned not to. So I love that you did shaking leaf. I do that kind of shit all the time in my house, you know, where they're like, what are you doing? And I'm like, mind your business.
SPEAKER_01Well, I was out in the yard too, right? And so I'm like sounding and I'm like shaking. And then all of a sudden the tears came. And I was like, oh, this is what I needed. I needed it to move through my system. I needed to get this pent-up energy out of my business. I see in moon, right?
SPEAKER_02I taught this class last night about how to identify how your client emotionally regulates through the birth chart, like how they move into a pattern, what their coping mechanism is, which you can find in Mars. Like Mars is how we cope. Our rising is how we identify Libra, right? For you. That's what it is for you. My rising, yeah. By Mars is in Scorpio, though. Okay. So, like alchemy. Yeah. Like obviously, I bet a little isolation is part of how you have to deal with things too. Like there's active isolation for you. So you can find meaning of it and you can alchemize it internally to externalize everything that you're going through. Right. But the moon is how I pattern people when they walk in the door, you know. Like Adrian's got a Piscean moon. That means she's a water body. That means we have got to go to emotions first. How does that make you feel? Where do you feel that in your body? What sensation comes up for you? Because if I were to sit with Adrian and be like, tell me what you're gonna do about that, she'd probably give me the finger. Just like if somebody was like, tell me how you feel. I'm an Aries moon. I'm like, motherfucker, I don't want to talk about how I feel. I want to go move this shit, right? My body's gonna blow up if I don't move.
SPEAKER_01Yes. Well, but that's my Aquarius, though, too. Like, I need to move in order to process the body. Uh-huh. I do, really. And it's funny, I was actually talking about this last night with my Rebel Remembered group, and we were talking about how stillness doesn't. You have an Aquarius moon. Sorry.
SPEAKER_02There's heavy Piscean in your chart. My apologies.
SPEAKER_01Yes, sorry. Yes, I have heavy Pisces in my chart, and it man does affect my nervous system regularly.
SPEAKER_02Yeah, because you become very porous. I think we're gonna completely and utterly abandon our topic here, but that's fine. We've talked before about weight, you and I, offline, and then we've talked about weight online too, right? And I think what gets lost in conversation for a lot of people is weight is very rarely calories in, calories out. Weight is very rarely hydration in, hydration out. Weight is very rarely movement throughout the day. Although I think in today's society, arguably most people could move more, particularly outside. Yes. But for you, obviously, and for many people listening to this that aren't porous in nature, the body packs on extra pounds in order to create a barrier between external energy and internal ecosystem. We are an energetic ecosystem. There's architecture inside, and the weight sits as a barrier in between because when energy meets that weight, it's instead of like a direct reverberation, there we go, Taylor, into the internal ecosystem, it has to pass through the layers that have been placed in between.
SPEAKER_01It's funny that you say it that way because without us having this conversation, I kind of suspected that my weight was protecting me in some way. I had attributed it to a particularly stressful period in my late 30s where I had a really significant shock financially to my system. And that is when I started gaining some of the weight. And so I had just put those two things together and I would go for a walk and I would literally put my hands on my stomach and say, Thank you for protecting me from whatever you were protecting me from, but it's time to let go. Yep. And I didn't lose, I did nothing different except that. And then I finally started to lose some of the weight. It was like I had to tell my body, it's okay. Thank you for protecting me, but it's okay. And I have started frequency medicine. We won't dive really deep into that today. But in what I have started so far, my body is recalibrating and I'm already seeing my body with the ability to lose some of the weight, my ability to ground myself. Like if I even a month ago, if we had decided to make this decision a month ago, I think I would have spiraled out a little harder than I am right now. And it's because it is helping me to anchor into my body better. But I am also using these tools, right? And tools that not a lot of people have or use regularly. Like I growled my son out into the world when I gave birth at home. And my kids teased me about it later about the fact that I sounded like a dying animal. And I was like, you know what? But your brother's here, isn't he? Like I was so insecure about making sounds like that. How many of us are though?
SPEAKER_02You were to be seen and not heard. So, how many of us were raised in the generation of being seen and not heard? So we don't actually know what our voice sounds like.
SPEAKER_01Well, and I didn't use it with my daughter, and because I felt really awkward about it. And closer towards the end, my midwife was like, You need to create vibration in your lower chakras, like you need to bring those tones, open your mouth and like bring those tones deep into your body. And it did, it helped. So this time I didn't care. I mean, you know, some of the beauty of being 40, right? Your field of fucks is a lot more barren. And I just was like, okay, like I'm gonna growl this baby out. And he came in less than half the time that my daughter did because I allowed myself to just make whatever noise needed to be made, and I didn't care about what anybody had to say. Well, the same situation regulating my nervous system here in the yard. I didn't care. My husband was like, What are you doing? And I was like, I didn't really care. And when I allowed myself to do those things, the tears came. My system regulated itself, and then I could have a clear brain to start creating the next steps because I can be a hell of a fucking project manager as long as I don't feel overloaded in my circuitry. And so I did what I had to do, and then it was like, okay, on to the next. This is what we have to do first, second, third, in order to save time and get everything we need to get done done. And we made it, yeah. But like, I mean, it's not that it wasn't a lot. My physical body is tired, my brain is tired because yeah, we pulled a little bit longer days, and usually I'm in bed by 10 o'clock, and that was not the case here. But we did it, and now it's just a matter of maintaining it, and that can be done. That's okay, that's not hard, right? Like, so sometimes we take on these big things in our life, and you know, we build them up to be something in our head. But if we regulate our nervous system and check in with this thing, this vessel that we live in, and say, does this feel good to me? Does this not feel good to me? And if it doesn't feel good to me, what can I do about it? So that is where I've done this in alignment. Yes, there's been a lot of work, and that part's not fun, but it's really been in the flow where like you can have a lot of work, but not have it feel hard. And the work happens. It's like my favorite Lao Tzu quote: nature never rushes and everything gets done. And I told everyone to find that to be accurate in your life.
SPEAKER_02Like the more I slow down, the more room is created. Even in business, it's so interesting. I'm coming to find, like, I had a conversation. Tuesdays are my mentor days, right? Like they're the day that I get to pour into my cup and have my brain broken. And like I've been doing this quantum thing since August of last year, and it is now March. And I'm like, I finally feel like it's all clicking, like I can speak about it fluently, you know. But the interesting thing is we were talking yesterday, and I was like, I just don't want to be seen on camera unless it's for my podcast. Like, the only camera that I want to be able to access my energetic field is the one that I can control via my podcast. And that's because the content in my podcast with Adrian, it's longer format. We can complete our sentences, like, and social media to me is not connection. I thought for so long that it was community. And I think there's a part of me that's like grieving this fallacy that social media is community. But every time I open the app, writing is one thing. I can write my little heart out. I love to write, like we're in a good writing groove. But every time I open the app, I think to myself, there are a thousand hands trying to grab at my attention. And each one of those hands carries a frequency. And most of the frequency that's carried on the tip of those fingers is guilt, shame, fear, right, catastrophe, like all of the what we would call non-beneficial spirits in quantum. Like you've got somebody trying to captivate your attention, and most of what captivates your attention jars your nervous system. And I don't think until you get to the point in your life, this is a personal opinion, that until you understand regulation in your own ecosystem, you start to see these things for what they are. And the idea of like turning my camera around and being like, hey, and welcome you in. Don't get me wrong, I want to connect with people. I just don't want to do it that way. Like I'd rather get on a call with somebody and pour into them. Like, let me welcome you into my world and show you what this is capable of doing for you. Versus let me make you a 90-second reel and try to water down 15 years of understanding in this body and in this world into something that's gonna capture your attention for three seconds.
SPEAKER_01Yes, that is the hardest thing for me. It's like, how do I distill this concept that it's already foreign to somebody into something that is gonna catch their attention? Because I have teenagers that are like, well, just do a TikTok mom. And I'm like, no, but that's not catching the attention of the people that I'm looking for. Correct.
SPEAKER_02If you require a three second hook, I'm probably not your girl. Brevity is not my forte. I am not good at remaining brief. I don't think either one of us are. Hello, air sign stillium, hello, air sign, you know, sun and moon. I like words. And details and explanation and connection through the cerebral points. Like, I love that. You know, so you were talking about regulating. And I'm like, there's so many elements of regulation in my life now that are really coming online where I'm like, yeah, I can't do that. It's like choosing to have like what's a Pat's blue ribbon that's like a beer that, you know, versus like the top shelf, like Instagram. I'm like, it's like PBR. Great. Like that's the kind of attention you're getting. The PBR, like the discount. And no, thank you. And that's coming from a place of understanding how dysregulating that world can be.
SPEAKER_01Yes. And having the courage to do what you need to do for you is hard for a lot of people. It's really hard for a lot of us because of what Taylor said earlier about not being heard, being seen and not heard, that aspect of things. Like I used to really have a hard time to advocate for myself. I used to have a hard time to have my voice heard. Hell, when I started recording my podcast on a weekly basis, I literally lost my voice. Like it just disappeared because I energetically have had such a hang up around this particular topic. And so this move situation has actually been really empowering for me, overwhelming, just because there's a lot of moving parts, but has really been empowering for me in a lot of ways because I just looked at my husband and I'm like, this doesn't feel good to me. Or no, like we're not going to get pushed, we're not going to get rushed. So Taylor did a beautiful solar return for me. And one of the aspects in it was looking at home. Like, are you going to make your home or are you going to relocate? This is actually like a theme for me this year. So this is something that felt in alignment to do right now. Even though, like, my head says things like, the world is a dumpster fire, look at the economy. Look at it. Like, so like the cerebral part of me is like, I don't know. It's doing exactly what it's supposed to do. But in my nervous system, it's like I am the person that I can clean house with the best of them, but I have to be in the right mood because otherwise I get too sentimental and I can't let go of things. So for me to say this, like I am a hermit. Anyone familiar with human design, I'm a 6'2. I'm a hermit hard. And I could just sequester myself in a room for days and not talk to a soul and be happy as a clam, as antisocial as that sounds. But I think it has to do with this very porous energetic nature that I have. But anyway, I said to my husband, I was like, for me to say it feels a line to move right now, this is the time to do it. Yeah. Because otherwise I will fight you and it's not going to feel good in my system to do it. And so some of it comes from the information that I had in my solar return. If you haven't gotten one from Taylor, please do it. But it helps you to see what is in alignment for you. And this decision still wasn't made from this is part of my solar return this year. It's been coming from the feeling that is being generated inside of my body. Okay. So when we're talking about alignment, none of it comes from this thing that sits on top of your shoulders that everybody says, oh, you got to use your head, not your heart. Well, that's bullshit. If you use your heart, it will never lie to you. Sometimes it might not make you the most popular person in the room. Correct. Because what is right for you might not be right for everyone around you or what they think you should do. But it does not mean that it is not right. Right. So we were talking about perfectionism in my rebel remembered group last night. And there was a question around perfectionism and why it's a bad thing and all of this type of stuff. And I was like, well, it's more a matter of structure, right? Perfectionism is in the eye of the beholder. It's the thing that is constructed based on the stories that we've been told and how you've been socialized. But perfect for you might not be perfect for somebody else. So perfectionism really is an illusion. Yep. So is control for the most part. Oh, 100%. And this has been part of this conversation that my husband and I have had. I cleaned the bathroom. Then here I see my husband cleaning behind me. And I was like, I just cleaned the bathroom. He goes, You did? And I'm like, oh, if we didn't have a timeline to meet right now, I might sock you, sir. Yeah. But it's because it was clean. However, my husband's version of clean in his head is different. Far exceeds what mere mortals can reach. Yeah. And I appreciate his attention to detail. However, it doesn't feel good when he makes it sound like I've done nothing. Yeah. Right. So this has also been a little bit of the stress of cleaning this place is like you'll go and you'll do like this whole big thing. You'll spend like hours in it. And then he'll find like the one dust kitty, or like, are you sure that you did this room? I'm just like, oh, he used to do that with when the kids were young too, and it stressed me out. So now I delegate household cleaning to all of the humans who live here. But the point is that it has to do with perfectionism being a construct. Yeah. Okay. It's the same thing, like this whole reality is a construct.
SPEAKER_02Yes, we are in the matrix. Literally, you're a Sims character. I don't know how else to put it. And you either have the light is on and everyone's home, or there's the light is on and no one's home. It's interesting, and that comes down to soul presence. And I won't digress into that today, but this whole entire thing is a construct. And they are now starting again. We live in a world where they're like, Do you have the science? And I'm like, Yes, we do now. And it lives in the quantum field, but there is evidence to suggest that everything is a hologram. And when you take us down to our smallest particle, we're not solid. Yep. So I think that has also helped alleviate some of the internal pressure I put on myself because I'm like, well, this is the classroom that I'm in. And even when shit has gotten real dicey, I've always been supported. It may not be the type of support I'm looking for, or it may not be up to snuff with the standards that I set for my life. But I haven't died. I haven't gone bankrupt. You know, like my immediate family is healthy. Situations that could have been way worse than they are. I actually made out on top. So what is my rush? What is my rush to rebuild my business? What is my rush to pay that bill? Sorry, I hate to promote irresponsibility, but like I need to keep the lights on. Cool, we'll pay that one. But like, I don't know why I am paying you to exist. Like it just alleviates this concept of things being constructs and understanding that is applicable to perfectionism and this whole thing that we're doing just allows you to really distill what's most important to you. Yes.
SPEAKER_01And what's most important, and honestly, this has been a huge and hard shift for me, but making decisions from my feeling body instead of my cerebral brain that has served me so incredibly well.
SPEAKER_02And that's coherent. So like I think it's really important to talk about this because we are an antenna, or to use your language, a tuning fork, right? And when we have mismatched or outdated signaling, I just talked about this in regards to autoimmunity, right? Like autoimmunity is not what we've been taught that it is. Your body is not attacking you. That is a very problematic, I would say, pervasive narrative that has been constructed around your body and it puts us in this position of war, like us against the body. That is so fucked when you actually think about it, right? Your body is actually responding appropriately to outdated information because your immune cells operate off of memory. And if we don't have the appropriate signaling in the system to say, hey, that situation, that infection, that chronic period of stress, that toxic environment is done. There's a punctuation. We're moving on. If we haven't had access to the tools to complete that signal, the body continues to operate off of the information associated with that outdated signal. And it goes from localized to systemic. So coherence is what most people lack. And symptom suppression can be helpful temporarily, but in the long run, suppressing your symptoms with a protocol or supplements or a drug doesn't actually address the lack of coherence.
SPEAKER_01And that's the part that I'm really starting to feel in my system. And I do really attribute it to the frequency medicine that I'm taking currently. Because the way that my system responds to stress, the anxiety that I normally would feel, like all of those things, like sure, is there stress? Yes, only because there's only so many hours in the day and I know that my energy is finite, right? And I'm working within my capacity. Correct. Which is also the other part that is being in alignment, right? But I have seen such a significant shift in such a short period of time. Maybe because I'm porous, maybe because I literally intention set every single time I take it.
SPEAKER_02That, and this is a good point of illumination. Frequency medicine only works as well as the system that it's being introduced into. So I will be the first one to tell you, as I've been taught, that frequency medicine is not a good fit for everyone, especially if the body is in disarray. So there is a period of time where it's completely appropriate to bring stabilization to the physical thing that we live within, right? Because we don't want to further scatter and fragment an ecosystem. And frequency medicine is potent enough to further scatter and fragment. So I think for you, Adrian, you have really beautiful, diligent hygiene emotionally, energetically, and physically, right? You're not eating a shit ton of processed food, you're not consuming a shit ton of shitty media, you're not moving your body, you're not tending to the aspects of herbs that could actually be quite beneficial, right? In creating some temporary stabilization, fertilizing the soil so that the stabilization can take root. So I think part of the reason you're seeing such a pronounced response is because your body was so very ready for receptivity. Right. Well, that makes me feel better. Yeah. That's not the case for everybody. And for some people that are just stable enough, but the process is going to be slower because there's so many layers still to address. But there's literally nothing else in my realm of understanding and awareness that can do what this does. And for me, it was the final missing piece. I think for a lot of people, you know, on top of having really strategic energy work done. Like that's part of what I do too. I will sit with you, I will use my physical tools, right? But then I'm gonna go and I'm gonna take care of some things that you can't access with your permission and the soul's permission. Like, let me look at energetic grids, let me see how your house is doing, let me see if there's any restoration that needs to be done. But for you, Adrian, I really think that the frequency medicine has taken such deep and beautiful root because you had a deeply fertile system ready to receive.
SPEAKER_01Thank you. I've done a lot of work on this system. I have gone from coming back to this idea of perfectionism, like I used to eat that shit for breakfast, which dinner. Yep. And I used to be a really high achieving, high performing, high drive kind of person. And I would burn myself out because I'm energetically not built that way. But I was trying to perform the way that I thought everybody needed me to perform. And I was trying to be something that just was not sustainable and was not a fit because it wasn't authentic to who I am. Yeah. And the more I came into right relationship with who I am, being more comfortable articulating my internal thoughts and what it is that feels good to me and what doesn't feel good to me, and speaking my truth around all of that. It's like my father said to me a little while ago, geez, you're the most outspoken you've been in years. And I was just like, thank you for noticing. And I'm healthier too. Yeah. So all of these little things, standing in your truth and being able to articulate your truth, they're hard and they feel weird at first, and it'll come out of your mouth, and then you'll feel like kind of insecure about it, like, oh, what is the backlash going to be? But the more you do it, the better you get at it. And it really has served me well in terms of being somebody who has endometriosis and an autoimmune condition. Like I have been pretty asymptomatic since I have stepped into my truth and articulating my truth and not feeling like I need to perform in a way that either makes other people comfortable, because God, my Libra rising, I was always the peacemaking diplomat in any situation. Yeah. And I could dance monkey like that now if I have to, but I care less about whether what I have to say makes somebody comfortable or uncomfortable. And I just say what needs to be said. I do it with tact, I do it with love and with care, but I still speak the truth rather than trying to make it palatable for other people. And that has changed a lot of how my system has shown up. I've spent years living in alignment with traditional Chinese medicine lifestyle. And that has brought a great deal. Now, granted, I try to put Eastern philosophy into Western culture, right? So, like, I still have the pressures of Western culture. I still am a mom taxi that has to take my kids everywhere. This is part of why this move is so appealing, because we don't have to spend as much time in our house. We can spend it living our life and doing the things. But, you know, I'm definitely at that mom bus stage. And like my husband does a ton of the shuttling, especially now that I've got the little guy. But being able to listen to my nervous system and be like, does this feel good to me and does this not? And then be able to verbalize that and articulate it, even with the stressors and pressures of modern day life, I show up very differently. I don't stress the same way. And then adding frequency medicine on top of it, the chatter in my head has changed dramatically.
SPEAKER_02Because there's containment in the mental field. Oh my God, it's so nice. I think it's really important that you're saying this too, because so many people think like, based on my circumstance, I can't change anything. And like that's going to keep you where you are. And that's not to say that there aren't systemic oppression systems put in place, but like again, if we take it back to this is all just one big game, right? The goal is to find our way out of whatever circumstance we are if we're unsatisfied with it. And we are all capable of doing that. It may look different from person to person, it may take longer than most of us want it to take, just count on it doing that. The physical lags in comparison to the energetic realm field, if you will. But we are all capable of literally changing our reality. And I'm not talking about this manifestation bullshit of like putting a vision board. Look, I love me a Pinterest vision board, but I'm not talking about that's for funsies. That's not visualization in the way that I'm talking about it. Like this type of manifestation actually takes intentional action, backing it up, changing the way that we talk, the way that we think about ourselves, the way that we interact with each other and the world around us, making different decisions than the decisions we're programmed to make. Guys, first of all, it's die, diet, DIE, like especially here in the United States. But like if you think about it, people are always like, I just really love sweets. Okay, well, I hear you, and maybe we don't have to completely omit sweets, but like, do you love sweets more than you love feeling good in your body? Like everybody has a very different rock bottom, and like we are absolutely 120% capable of changing the world around us, and it's much more subtle than we realize. I think most of us are waiting for this, like, oh, it ain't like that. It's little, and it is, you know, one day you reflectively go, oh shit, that's different.
SPEAKER_01I remember that day. I felt so frustrated when I first started really changing my lifestyle into a more eastern flow. And again, it was bumping up against what I was conditioned, right? In Western culture. And so I looked foreign and like a fruitcake to the rest of my family. And I was like, no, but this is going to help how I feel and the way I show up in the world and all of these things. And as I was doing that, I remember sitting at my desk in November, December for the first time having wool socks inside of Ug boots, so like the shearling lined, right? And I could never keep my heat from my knee to my toe. And your feet were warm. And my feet were warm. And I remember going, Holy shit, my feet are warm. Yeah. This is the first time this has ever happened.
SPEAKER_02Yeah. It's subtle, it's so subtle, and it takes a lot longer. But I think the interesting thing is too, like when you don't hyperfixate on it, it goes much quicker. When you just show up in your like I started the vibration plate probably four months ago consistently, I was very inconsistent with it. It's a routine now. I don't even think about it. It's second nature. Like I have the things that I do in the morning and I do my morning steam directly after my vibration plate, but it's like 15 minutes. I get up, I make enough time to do it every single morning. You know, that has made an immense difference in how my body carries because I stagnate pretty easily. Yeah, it has made an immense difference in how my body carries fluid, right? And I actually feel a difference when I don't do it. Same thing with movement or castor oil on my abdomen or abdominal massage. Like you just learn how to build these things in, and nobody else is responsible for your regulation but you. So the world is always going to be chaotic. There are forever going to be people in power and politicians that want to completely and utterly dysregulate you because it is profitable for them. Okay. Social media is not what it was when it started. Instagram is no longer let me catch up with my friends and see what's going on in their life. And let's post pretty pictures. It's all about extraction at this point, capitalistic extraction. Okay. And nobody is responsible for your regulation but you. It's on you, babe. And I think that's the part that most people are like, well. And I'm like, personal responsibility and personal excellence are yours to own or abandon. It's only a choice. It's all a choice. And I know that people are dealt some really shitty cards in life, and I still think that they can find their way out of it.
SPEAKER_01I think so too. I really do. Everything is a choice. I tell my teenagers that all the time. Whether they're like, Oh, well, I couldn't do it because of this or this. I was like, but you chose to do that. Yep. So you still had the same expectation that it's like getting our house clean for this showing. And my son's like, but I had to work. I've been working. And I'm just like, okay, great. But your job is optional. Mine is not. And you chose to do this, but you still have the same responsibility for getting your room clean.
SPEAKER_02Sorry, like this is adulthood, man. I think this generation that you and I are raising, like the younger kids, what is it, the alpha generation? Like, I think they're finally getting the feedback that like they get to be cycle breakers too. Like, okay, mommy and daddy learned how to do this thing called life differently. And Pluto and Scorpio generation, like I think it's Pluto and Capricorn, and Pluto and Scorpio, like those two came in and decided to take on the bullshit of the world. Pluto and Scorpio has been transmitting trauma since they came out of the wound. Like, literally, y'all signed up for it. I'm sorry, I'm in this generation too. It's exhausting. I know. And like we chose it. Okay. But like this, I think it's are we back in Capricorn? No. We're in Aquarius. Pluto and Aquarius.
SPEAKER_01Okay, yeah, yeah. So, like, what are these the kids that like Sephora? I have two Gen Z and a Gen Alpha in my house, and they behave very differently.
SPEAKER_02There's this like maybe it's not the Pluto placement, but like there's a commonly shared placement amongst the kids that are like that tween teen right now. Yes. Like 10 to 16. And the 10 year olds are going to Sephora because they want skincare. And I'm just like, what happened to Sarah? Like drugstore, you know what I mean? But there's a commonly shared placement amongst these kids. It just like it depicts and illustrates the difference in generations. But I really do think that every soul chooses its circumstance. And I think all of us at some point or another, the souls that are aware that they're present, have had many different lifetimes and many different circumstances. And the circumstance you chose to walk into in this lifetime was intentional for the growth path of your soul's evolution. And you may not like it, but I can promise you at this point that if you choose not to actively participate in it, you'll be back and it'll be much worse. Which doesn't sound fun to me. No, just eat the shit sandwich and let's move on. Okay. Like let's just make peace. Let's turn the turd, let's shine the turd. I don't know how else to put it. Like we'll figure it out, we'll make it through. I can tell you without a shadow of a doubt, I don't want to go back. I do set me free. Where's the mothership? Yeah, seriously. But what a smortgage board of an episode, guys. I am on a time crunch today. So I am going to lovingly sign off. But Adrian, is there anything that you would like to leave our listeners with?
SPEAKER_01I would say that I think that one of the best ways that you can serve yourself is to take a few minutes when you first wake up in the morning, put your hands over your heart and ask your body how you feel today. And not answer from the head, but really from your body. And that takes practice. But that's the first step in terms of really getting familiar and reconnecting with your essence self.
SPEAKER_02And your voice, your authentic voice, not the voice of your mom or your dad or your auntie or your grandma or your best friend, your voice.
SPEAKER_01Yes. And then you also going into your environment, depending on how energetically sensitive you are, you can tell what is yours and what's not. And that level of discernment is the beginning to being able to do things in an aligned way. Notice I didn't use the word manifestation or anything like that in what I said. It's all about your body and literally the frequency of your field, knowing what resonates in a coherent way with your system and what makes you bristle. Like it's no different than when you meet a person, and that initial feeling that you get is, oh, I don't know how I feel about this person because of their energy, right? It bumps up against your field and you get a feeling before you actually know anything. Not a judgment from your head, but how you feel when you enter a space with somebody, right? That's the kind of thing I'm talking about. So if you can start practicing getting clear on how you feel in this vessel, it will help to guide everything else that you do.
SPEAKER_02Yeah. Amen to that. All right. On that note, guys, subscribe, like, share, subscribe. I would love to figure out a way to do like an interactive, almost like an ass tell, confess or like your weirdest health experiences, and we read them on the podcast. We'll think about that. That would be amazing. But yeah, yeah. Spotify, Apple, YouTube, that's where we're really focusing on right now. So if you like what we're chatting about and you love spending time with us each week, go ahead and hit the subscribe button. Let us know what you think. We read all of the comments. And until next time, guys, stay well.